To the People I Hurt While I was Hurting: I'm Sorry

I know it’s wrong to blame or hurt someone just because I was hurting. Maybe even saying sorry to them doesn't really mean that much, but telling the truth could never erase what had already been damaged. However, let me at least write these words for you.

This is to all the people I hurt while I was hurting.

I’m sorry if I wasn’t paying attention to all the beautiful stories you were telling me. I know you just wanted to lighten up my mood, but I was so occupied with the stressful days of mine, that I couldn’t appreciate what you were doing for me.

I’m sorry if I spoiled your days with all the rants I kept telling you every day. I know how hard it is to keep on listening to someone who’s so sad and angry at the same time. Believe me, I’m so tired of being like this too.

I’m sorry for being so stubborn that I didn’t listen to your advice. I know that you only want what’s best for me, yet there I was, being an arrogant, know-it-all, who only ended up being an ugly person.

I’m sorry for being so mean. I know my words are like sharp knives piercing through your heart every time you hear me say cruel things to you when I’m just so mad and frustrated. I never meant those words, I swear. It’s just that I cannot control my emotions when I’m so sad and upset.

I’m sorry for snubbing you and not talking to you at all. I know it seems like I'm being selfish and rude, but you see, sometimes I really just want to be alone. Especially, when I’m not in the mood to talk about my problems. It's not you, it's me.

I want you to know, how sorry I am every time I hurt you. I am deeply hurt knowing that I caused so much pain to the people who mean the world to me. I just thank God for blessing me with these people who still love me at my worst.

To those of you whom I’ve hurt while I was hurting, thank you for staying in my life and always loving me for who I truly I am.